Coming Clean

I spent most of the week hunting down a check and trying to figure out how not to take a job I didn't want.

I am seriously hoping that the check issue will get worked out today and I was saved from the bad job by a good job. The reason I am telling you all this is because this week, I had some serious trouble avoiding the voices in my head. The ones that kept telling me I needed a job asap in spite of the fact that if you want to be  technical, I currently have three.

Or the voice that reminded me that 19 days from today I will be 37 and have nothing to show for it.

And then I made a shift.

Because I really do have three jobs. Sure they are just beginning, mostly on call right now, but I have them! I also have some really amazing people in my world who rallied around me the other day when I most needed people to do just that. When breaking it all down, I am not only lucky I am downright blessed.

'Bubbles' (C)2012 S.M. Raven

Last week I lost my glasses, oh the crisis, oh the angst! And again, two of my friends offered to pay for news and another offered me one of her extra pairs. This doesn't really sound like I am living a life of lack, though yes, there are many times when I feel that way.

There is nothing wrong with days when you are feeling low. Just don't let them drag you down to the bottom of the depths. Allow yourself to see and be buoyed by all the love that comes to you, which sometimes isn't actively acknowledged.

What shift do you need to make right now to make the rest of this week better for you?

Getting Still

The last few weeks I have been pretty quiet due to the fact that I have been busily working on the next aspect of my journey. Turns out to be bartending school! I had some issues to work through surrounding this shift. I was really unprepared for it. But it came after I gave it up to the universe and this is the opportunity that presented itself. So I had to get to a place where I could look at the whole situation clearly and without negative judgement.

After a few weeks with no crocheting, I finished a free form scarf and then moved on to making myself a new purse. Here are the gussets and handle on top of the base. This one will be sturdier and better lined!

I've also been doing art this past week in my limited down time. My sketchbook is getting filled with some really good stuff and my watercolors have been getting a workout! Gotta flex those art muscles.

The most amazing thing that has happened this last week is that I feel still. My mind is not working overtime as it normally does. With some help from a good friend and my life coach I was able to remember the endgame and know how to get myself there. My abundance is flowing because I am not worried about it doing so. I'm just in it.

And there is some good stuff ahead so stay with me :)

What has been happening with you this past few weeks? What is working? What isn't?